Sure enough, we woke up this morning (after an awful night's sleep) and after shaking off the morning grogs, we both felt completely lifted up. Wow, it was like we both had spirit-filled air breathed back into us. We're off to a little slow start at the chemo clinic so I thought I would just give a mid-day update. :) Kristi just got her 'sleepy meds' and she is drifting off to sleep. She’s so beautiful...check out our new digs!! Now that we’re 'regulars' at the chemo clinic we get this nice room with windows and a recliner for me!! It’s so much nicer than the first rooms we had (Kristi's just sleeping from the meds!)...
About all that madness last night…well, it was a pretty bad night. It started with dropping the kids off. The look in Ashley’s eyes as I dropped her off just crushed me. Last night was the closest Kristi has come to giving up. She was talking about Hospice, quitting, and being scared. It was a scary thing to watch. Everything about her just quit. At 2:30 this morning she had another bad bout of diarrhea and nausea. The look on her face was one of complete defeat. I ran downstairs looking for her ‘bags’ and meds and I just wanted to scream. Not sure at who…just tired I guess. It's just so frustrating and I hated seeing her this way...she can't give up! We went back to bed around 3ish and it seemed like we just tossed and turned the rest of the night.
BUT…That’s all behind us!! We got a number of extremely uplifting e-mails this morning (we always check our e-mail before we leave for chemo) – and the prayer pager is going off like crazy today…even our chemo nurse (Greta) made a comment. Reading those e-mails and the constant buzz of the pager lifted our spirits almost immediately...thank you so much. I could tell in the car ride here that she was feeling better. She was talking; she had expression back in her face; the 'I quit' look was gone. They are giving her another dose of steroids today so hopefully that will help her today and tomorrow and keep her spirits high. What a difference.
They will be starting the chemo soon so we should be home by about 5.
Thanks again for the prayers. They are indeed working. God is great!!!!!!
