Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Tuesday, October 30, 2007: Peaks and Valleys

A poem a friend recently shared with us:

It’s in the Valleys I Grow

Sometimes life seems hard to bear,
Full of sorrow, trouble and woe
It’s then I have to remember
That it’s in the valleys I grow.

If I always stayed on the mountain top
And never experienced pain,
I would never appreciate God’s love
And would be living in vain.

I have so much to learn
And my growth is very slow,
Sometimes I need the mountain tops,
But it’s in the valleys I grow.

I do not always understand
Why things happen as they do,
But I am very sure of one thing.
My Lord will see my through.

My little valleys are nothing
When I picture Christ on the cross
He went through the valley of death;
His victory was Satan’s loss.

Forgive me Lord, for complaining
When I’m feeling so very low.
Just give me a gentle reminder
That it’s in the valleys I grow.

Continue to strengthen me, Lord
And use my life each day
To share your love with others
And help them find their way.

Thank you for the valleys, Lord
For this one thing I know
The mountain tops are glorious
But it’s in the valley I grow!

Monday, October 29, 2007

Monday, October 29, 2007: An uneventful day

Today went really well. We were in and out of the chemo clinic by noon! It wasn't very busy so things went through quickly. All of my counts (red, white and platelets) were up! They are typically down or stay the same. This was a great surprise! My CA125 level won't be tested again until November 19.

When we picked up Emily from Brian's parents, his mom had a supper ready for us to bake tonight. Thank you mom & dad! It was a yummy casserole with meat and potatoes and carrots. A real comfort food.

I took a nap this afternoon and am still very tired. I am going to bed now (it's 8:00) and am hoping to be all rested up and full of energy tomorrow.

Some prayer requests:

*Praise for high blood levels!

*Emily has been acting a little out of sorts lately. I think she is having a hard time with us sending her different places. She did well at Brian's parents last night but when we picked her up today she wouldn't talk to us and didn't even want to look at us for a while. It was like she was mad at us for leaving her. Please pray that she will have security in knowing that she is always in a safe place even if she isn't with mommy and daddy.

*Ashley and Nathan's colds seem to be on the way out - yea!

*Brian took care of everything for me today. He cleaned up the house while I was sleeping, heated up supper and took care of the dinner dishes. He just got back from bringing Ashley to piano lessons and will soon be off to Meijer's tonight for groceries. He is the man! Pray for patience for him during this busy time.

I would love prayers for energy and for peace. When I am very tired it is easy for me to get down. Also, tonight I started having an acid taste in my mouth when I eat - yuck! Thank you!

Sunday, October 28, 2007

Sunday, October 28, 2007: Grace!

We shared our story this morning with the congregation at Grace Community Church and it went quite well. Our prayers were answered as God put all the right words in our mouths. One lady said to me before the service "we're really excited to hear what God leads you to say this morning". I replied back, "so am I!" I really had no idea how it would go, what we would say or how long we would talk. Surprisingly, neither of us was nervous at all. We spoke for about 10 minutes or so and I felt like we could have spoken for another 30! There is just so much to share sometimes we struggle with exactly what to say. Pastor Aaron did a nice job of asking leading questions and then just let us say as much as we wanted. Thanks again to Grace Church for letting us share our story in person.

Tomorrow we start round 10. Please pray that this dose is uneventful. Also a prayer of praise and thanksgiving that we were able to share our story this morning. Several people told us afterwards that we were/are very inspirational. We feel very blessed and honored that God is using us this way. We'll update tomorrow night to let you know how chemo went. We're both pretty wiped out so we're turning in early tonight.

Saturday, October 27, 2007

Saturday, October 27, 2007: Fall Weather

What a strange day! This morning was so cloudy and rainy and cold and then out of nowhere this afternoon the sun just came shining brightly through the clouds! What a great display of God's power.

We had plans with our neighbors to go to Feikema's farm this evening and based on the weather this morning, I was planning on staying home with Emily. After that sun kicked in I decided to go and am so glad we could. We had tons of fun roasting hot dogs and s'mores over the fire, going on a hay ride, and getting to make our own apple cider with a hand crank mill (I think that's what they called it).

Now the kids are all sound asleep after spending time running around playing outside. I'm about to turn in as well but wanted to send out a quick update.

One prayer request I do have is for tomorrow morning. Please pray that when we talk at church, we are tuned into God wants us to say. Neither Brian or I are nervous about it which is definitely God working in us. We are not public speakers but when God decides we need to share about all He has done for us, He gives us the confidence to do it. Please also pray for those that hear us, that our words will be an encouragement to them as well.

Friday, October 26, 2007

Friday, October 26, 2007: Thank You

Wow. We continue to be humbled by the generosity of everyone. Tonight we were blessed with a gift from someone who rang our doorbell and ran away before we could see them. I hope whoever it was reads our blog so they know how very much we appreciate it.

We are so thankful for all the support we have from our family and friends!!

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Wednesday, October 24, 2007: Have you heard?

A couple people have told me that they heard me on WJQ! Unfortunately I haven't heard myself yet but maybe that's a good thing. Yesterday when I got home from church there was a message from WJQ that my sister had nominated me for the "Contest of all time". When I called back I talked with Gary Thompson for a little while about what has been going on with us this year.

He told me that I had won a gift certificate for the family to Applebee's, a gift certificate to Priscilla's Boutique, a free night for the family at Holiday Inn Express as well as a gift certificate for supper that night at Sharkey's. Also, a week of meals from Request Foods and a watch from Jensen Jewelers! I was stunned. I didn't know what to say. I also didn't realize that I was being recorded. I was quite surprised when a friend called me later to tell me that she heard me on the radio! And apparently it aired again this morning.

I received a beautiful e-mail tonight from someone who heard this interview and checked out our blog. It's just amazing to look back and see how God worked through all of it.

That was the excitement before nap time. I napped yesterday and went to bed early because I was pretty nauseous and very tired. I'm also quite tired tonight but fortunately I had enough energy to go to the Girls Night Out with Ashely for GEMS. I'm definitely ready for a good nights sleep now!

I do have some prayer requests to share:

*All the kids are fighting off cold symptoms. Also, Emily is very clingy with me these days. I think she missed having me around while we were gone this past weekend and then I left again on Monday for chemo. Although I enjoy the extra cuddle time with her, it can become physically tiring.

*I have scheduled an appointment with a psychologist through Pine Rest for two weeks from now. Brian will also be coming with me. I have been struggling with guilt. I know it sounds strange but I just so much believe that I will beat this that when I read about other people who have far more serious issues than I have then I feelings of guilt about being a survivor. I'm probably getting ahead of myself by calling myself a "survivor" but positive thinking never hurts!

*A while back I asked for prayers for my mom's friend Louise. She has gone through the surgery for a double mastectomy and has begun chemo. I talked to her a couple weeks ago and she sounded amazing! She also has the peace that I have found. Please continue to keep her in your prayers as she has to have six treatments of a very toxic chemo.

*Brian, as always, is pulling some extra weight. I seem to be a bit more tired from this week's chemo and he has been taking over so I can rest. Please pray that he will stay healthy. He has been running a lot lately on the treadmill - yea! Pray that he will continue to be motivated. His ankle has not been giving him too many problems - hooray! I can tell that this exercise is helping him feel better physically and emotionally. Thank you!!

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Tuesday, October 23, 2007: Prayers Needed

Please continue to hold up Kristi in prayers. Although she was able to go to church this morning and help out at Coffee Break, she's been wiped out since. She is very tired and nauseous. Hopefully after a good night's rest and many prayers she'll feel better tomorrow. Thanks!

Also, as a reminder we'll be sharing our story in person with Grace Community Church this Sunday during the 9:30 service. Grace is on the corner of 136th and Riley in Holland. We're not sure how exciting we'll be but we're definitely looking forward to it!

Monday, October 22, 2007

Monday, October 22, 2007: Not what we were hoping for

I'm sure you are all wondering what the new CA125 level is. I wish I could say that we hit the magic number, but we didn't. As one friend said though, "at least it went down". She's right. It did go down to 42 (it was at 47). We were quite disappointed but are adjusting to it.

It was a very long day, waiting both at the doctor's office and the chemo clinic. They were both behind schedule which meant a lot of waiting time for us. Even though we didn't do a lot today, the sitting and waiting tends to take it out of us. So, it's early bedtimes for everyone tonight!

Some prayer requests:

*Ashley is coming down with a cold.

*Dealing with the fact that we didn't hit the "magic" number. I can tell Brian is still quite down and is very quiet.

*I am a bit nauseous and tired from the chemo today. On that note, I'm off to take a nausea pill and go to bed. Thank you as always for your prayers!!

Sunday, October 21, 2007

Sunday, October 21, 2007: What a Weekend!

For 5 years now Kristi and I have been escaping for a weekend in October. We pack the camper up, ship the kids off, and go camping for a weekend with just the 2 of us. This is by far our favorite weekend of the year. Earlier this year we decided even with the cancer and the colostomy we were going to keep the tradition going...and are we glad we did!!! This was by far the best year we ever had.

Thursday night (with storm warnings and all) we ventured out all the way to Holland State Park!! Yup, 7 miles from home!! We got the perfect spot nestled alongside the back of the dune. The storm never bothered us. Later we found out there was even a tornado watch! Hmmm, go figure. We had an awesome time just enjoying each other. We make no plans and head out with nothing but movies, books, magazines, and a laptop...oh yeah, and lots of junk food!!!! We do nothing all weekend but read, watch movies, and talk. We don't even stray that far from the camper (we ate out one night). What an amazing time.

Thursday night I made deluxe chips & cheese for dinner

Here's Kristi enjoying one of her books

and Kristi busy stamping away!! (check out the hair!!)

Tomorrow morning before chemo we meet with her oncologist for a standard check up. We will get her CA125 level checked tomorrow as well. We're praying for 35. Please God let it be 35. Pray bold with us. Admittedly, we'll be bummed if it's not 35 so please pray that it's 35. Here are some thoughts from Kristi:

What a beautiful weekend! It's hard to believe it's October. It's also hard to believe how quickly this weekend flew. It wasn't easy to pack up and come home today. I could have stayed another week! I missed the kids but a weekend alone with Brian is quite a treat! There wasn't anyone asking me for anything, didn't have to nag anyone to get their homework done and I didn't have to change any diapers! Plus, Brian does most of the cooking when we are camping so I was spoiled rotten! I had endless time to read, stamp and sleep - I slept 12 hours every single night!

I have to agree with Brian that we are both really hoping for my CA125 level to be 35. If this is not the plan, I am going to add to his prayer requests that we will remember, it's just a number. We're just so anxious to get to the last two cycles of chemo after we hit that magic number. I'm not a very outgoing person but as soon as we hear from our nurse that we've hit the number, I think I may scream, shout and do a happy dance!

Thank you as always for all your prayers!

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Thursday, October 18, 2007: Have A Great Weekend

We're taking a break! We'll update you on Sunday. Until then, have a great weekend!!

PS...we're doing great!

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Wednesday, October 17, 2007: A normal day :)

Yea - nothing broke on me today! My jaw is still a little sore but that is to be expected. Someone wrote a comment on yesterdays posting asking who my dentist is an if I recommend him. His name is Dr. David Christensen and I definitely recommend him. His office is on Riley Street by the library (in Holland).

A few years back I was looking for a new dentist. I have a lot of anxiety when I have work done on my teeth. The first thing I mentioned when I called the office was that I have a lot of fear when it comes to dental work and pain. When the receptionist told me that Dr. Christensen was a "self proclaimed wimp" I knew I had found the right place! He makes every effort to make sure that I am comfortable (or as comfortable as I can be with sharp objects in my mouth!). All of the staff at his office are wonderful. So, if you are looking for a dentist, I do recommend him.

On another note, we do need prayers for health. All the kids seem to have some mild cold symptoms. Also, Brian is very tired. He has been dealing with coughing kids during the night and then having trouble falling back to sleep. Thank you!

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Tuesday, October 16, 2007: Expect the unexpected

Well, the strangeness continues. I wasn't able to have chemo today but not because of my counts. This morning a part of my tooth fell off. Yup - I'm falling apart.

The week before I found out I had cancer I was scheduled to have a crown. Needless to say, I had to postpone it. Well, my tooth continued to decay to the point that part of it became so soft it chipped off. So this afternoon I went in and had a crown put on and the tooth next to it filled because it was starting to decay as well.

I can actually look back and see God's hand throughout today. Because of the chip, I had to get in today. My dentist had a cancellation this afternoon otherwise it would have been difficult to get in. He said that I was quite lucky that it chipped because it was very close to needing a root canal. Yikes! Plus, my oncologist was on the fence on whether or not I should have chemo today. My counts were low but I could have had it. They wanted to wait until next week though and weren't' sure what to do. My chipped tooth answered it for them! Even my nurse said it was "a God thing".

I'm fortunate to have a really good dentist who knows that I am quite anxious about dental work. He is also aware of what is going on in our life. He did an awesome job today! Even though he had a cancellation, he still made some changes to make sure he could take care of me today.

Now that the numbness has worn off I am feeling a lot better. The kids thought that I sounded pretty funny when I talked with a numb tongue! I'm pretty tired now so it's time to turn in. Good night!

Tuesday, October 16, 2007: No Chemo

Kristi did not have chemo yesterday...not because of her blood counts but because the hospital never faxed her blood work results to her oncologist. She might go in today for chemo...we're waiting to hear from her nurse. She is doing great!!!!!

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Sunday, October 14, 2007: Strange Weekend

What a strange weekend! Friday night Kristi was still weak and tired so we stayed home (we had plans to go to the Holland Christian football game). Saturday morning we had plans to go to Cranes Apple Orchard with friends and ride the hay ride and pick apples. Kristi was still tired and weak so she stayed home in bed while I took the kids to Cranes with our friends. Then I got a call from Kristi on my cell phone while on the hay ride..."now don't freak out honey". I love it when the conversation begins like that! Well, she was at Holland Hospital getting fluids through an I/V (she had a friend drive her). She was bleeding and was still very weak so her doctor told her to go to the hospital...ends up she was also dehydrated, that's why she got the fluids. So, our friends were nice enough to take the kids for me and pick apples while I headed to the hospital.

We are so blessed to have such understanding and great friends. Thank you Sheri for taking Kristi to the hospital and thanks Den and Stace for taking the kids without hesitation. I also had to cancel plans with my friend Brian (sorry Brian) in the afternoon and we had to cancel going to a work party. Sorry Guys! I think our friends are becoming quite used to this just as much as we are. Isn't that sad?!

Today Kristi is feeling much better. She is getting her strength back and was even able to help with some of the bedroom rearranging today. Praise God.

Last week I promised an update on how we're doing with raising money for Lori & Eric. Well, so far we have raised nearly $400 in just over 2 months!! That is awesome!!

Here are some words from Kristi:

As Brian said earlier, we did some bedroom rearranging over the weekend (between being sick and hospital visits!). Ashley has moved back downstairs, Nathan back to his old room, and Emily into the room the kids were sharing. Lots of work but definitely worth it. Ashley and Nathan were starting to fight a lot and they needed their own space. I think Ashley is a bit nervous being in the basement but is mostly excited to have her own room again "away from Nathan".

I am feeling a lot better today. Tomorrow morning I have to go to Holland Hospital for blood work and depending on the counts, I may or may not have chemo.

Some prayer requests:
*Ashley has been upstairs twice now since I have been typing this because she hears noises. She has always had a hard time falling asleep at night and now being in a new room I'm sure it will be harder. Please pray that she will be able to fall asleep so she can get the sleep she needs.

*Nathan misses having Ashley in the room (although I think it is so he has someone to pick on). Pray also that he will adjust to the new setting).

*Emily acted a little out of sorts earlier today and I thought she may be coming down with the flu. She was much better after her nap but please pray that she, as well as all of us, will stay healthy.

*Thanks that the bleeding stopped yesterday and no further action was needed. Also for the friends and family that have stepped in time and time again this weekend to help us.

* Pray for Brian as he has been running ragged since Thursday (and the kids woke him up 3 times last night!). He has been able to do some running again and can tell it is helping. Pray also that his ankle will continue to heal so he is able to keep running.

Thank you!!

Friday, October 12, 2007

The Interview

Friday, October 12, 2007: Slowly Recovering

Thank you for all the prayers. I am so glad the the vomiting stopped before I needed to go to the emergency room. It was a very long couple of hours that came out of nowhere. I am feeling better tonight, just weak and tired. Thank you so much to the family and friends that have jumped in to help with the kids! Brian will be posting the interview from WJQ later tonight.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Thursday, October 11, 2007: Need Prayers

I've said this before and I'll say it again, it's amazing how quickly things can turn. We were doing so good. We had a rough night. About a half hour after I got home from work Kristi became quite nauseous. Soon after she started throwing up. She threw up until about 8:15. She was one throw up away from going to the emergency room. She's been sleeping since 8:15 so hopefully we're out of the woods. She is very weak and tired. Please pray for her strength to return and this wave of nausea to pass. I can't even begin to explain the look in her eyes tonight. Painful.

I'm tired after a long night so I'm going to keep it short. Please immerse us with prayers tonight. Thanks!

The Interview Already Aired

Sorry, even we missed it. The interview aired at about 6:50 this morning. We'll try to get the sound bite and put it on the blog.

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Wednesday, October 10, 2007: The Interview

Well, we had our interview today with Doug Swink from Winning At Home. It was really difficult to not only fit this past year, but also fit the past 14 years of marriage into a 5 minute conversation. We’d like to thank Winning At Home and WJQ for inviting us onto their show to tell our story. We would welcome the chance to come back and have a deeper discussion about how this cancer has brought us closer together and how we have seen God working in our lives over the past 10 months. It’s obvious that God has cleared the way down this path that we’re walking down together. Whether its cancer, death, a tragic accident, or whatever, the message we're trying to spread is that something good can come out of something bad. Not only that, but bad things can happen to good people. Not only “good” people, but bad things happen to Christian people. Being a Christian doesn’t make you immune to disease and tragedy. We feel that is such a huge message to get out to the secular world.

When you have a life changing event occur in your life, you have an immediate decision to make: do I get bitter, or do I get better? That’s the decision we had to make on January 23. We chose to be better. Does it mean we’re never bitter? Nope! But the bitter times make us better. It would be nice to skip to the last chapter to see how this all plays out, but it’s all this in-between stuff that builds our character. We really are like a ball of clay and God is the potter - He molds and shapes us during these trials. That’s the biggest life lesson that I have learned over the past 10 months.

We still don’t have details as far as when the interview will be played tomorrow morning. If we get the sound bite file we will post it on our blog. So times are good again. We’re busy, feelin’ good, and enjoying time together as a family.

Tomorrow night we’ll give an update on how our ads are doing for Lori & Eric. We think we’ll have some good news to report!

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

Tuesday, October 9, 2007: Married for Life

Once again our journey takes an exciting turn. Tomorrow morning we're being interviewed by WJQ (99.3) to be aired during Thursday's morning show between 6 and 10AM. We are being interviewed as part of Dan Seaborn's ministry Winning At Home (http://www.winningathome.com/) and its challenge for couples to make a commitment to be married for life (M4L). The challenge is for 1 million couples to make this commitment (more of a re-commitment really - you already made a commitment to God when you first were married, right?! This is just a re-commitment to be made with a family of believers that will help keep you accountable). Check out the link on the Winning At Home home page for details and if you feel so inclined, sign up. We're pretty excited about this opportunity to share our story and how this cancer has brought us closer together. As Kristi said in her very first e-mail..."You know, I wasn’t really living until now. I was gliding through life. Look out world cuz here I come!!!" It's been an amazing ride so far that just keeps getting more exciting all the time. If we get more details tomorrow as far as when the actual interview will be aired we'll pass them along. As of now, we just know it will be aired some time between 6 and 10AM.

Kristi had her chemo treatment yesterday and thanks to answered prayers her side effects have been pretty minimal thus far. We seem to have a small bug running through the house, however. This morning I woke up with a small stomach ache, Nathan now has a stomach ache and Ashley isn't feeling very well either. Please pray that none of us pass this along to Kristi and it passes quickly.

Please also pray that tomorrow's interview goes well and that Thursday morning we can "shine" to someone that needs a little "pick-up".

Sunday, October 7, 2007

Sunday, October 7, 2007: Round 9, Dose 2

Tomorrow Kristi goes in for the second dose of round 9. Her friend Sheri will be going with her tomorrow to keep her company. It should be an uneventful chemo day - no doctor's visit, no CA125 check - just chemo.

Both Kristi and I are doing much better these days emotionally. Thanks so much for all the prayers.

Kristi's a little tired so she said she'd update the blog later in the week. Please pray that tomorrow's chemo treatment goes well and that the side effects will be minimal.

Saturday, October 6, 2007

Saturday, October 6, 2007: A New Friend

I received an e-mail today from someone who is in need of prayers. Her name is Lisa and she has an appointment next Friday at U of M. She is a mother of two young kids. I have e-mailed her back and when I hear more from her I will share more specific requests. For now, please pray for peace and that God would move so close to her right now that she can feel His arms wrapped around her. The initial diagnosis and the statistics and talk of treatment possibilities is very overwhelming at this time.

Brian and I enjoyed a night out tonight. We went to dinner and then went grocery shopping. Not real exciting but always fun to have time alone no matter what we do. I'm feeling stronger and the nausea is finally gone.

That's it for tonight. Thank you for adding Lisa to your prayers!

Thursday, October 4, 2007

Thursday, October 4, 2007: I Jumped The Gun

Sunday night I proclaimed "we're back"! I guess I was a bit premature. Wow, what a week. I've never seen Kristi this down this long. Today she seems quite a bit better. I'm not really sure what set it off but I hope it doesn't happen again. We're not quite out of the woods yet, so please keep those prayers coming. She's out tonight with an old friend she hasn't seen in years...she was pretty excited about going out.

We were also asked today to give our testimony at Grace Church in Holland on October 28. Eeeks. We're not the type of people that are comfortable being in the spotlight; at least being in front of people that is. The blog is one thing, but in front of real people?! Yikes! Flashbacks of the Poker Run come to mind when I looked up and saw hundreds of people staring down at us...I froze. That would have been a great opportunity to share some about how God has worked magic in our lives...but all I could muster up was "um, thank you". I'm sure we'll do much better at this.

Well, please keep those prayers coming. The main thing to pray for right now is Kristi's spirit. I'm not going to say her light is "dimmed" because I don't think that's possible. Even when she's down she's shining. So please help me lift her up in prayer.

Thanks everyone!

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

Wednesday, October 3, 2007: Doing Better

Today is definitely a step up from yesterday. I'm still tired and a little bit nauseous but emotionally feeling a little better. Thank you for your prayers and your comments and e-mails.

Please continue to pray that I will have more energy, less nausea and patience.

All the kids are overtired. Please pray that they will stay healthy.

Brian has been taking great care of me as always. Some days I don't know why he puts up with me! Keep him in your prayers as well for good health and the patience to endure my mood swings :)

This is quite the ride we're on and I appreciate all of you sticking with me through the highs and lows and for all your prayers and support.

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

Tuesday, October 2, 2007: Not a good night

I know typically I say that if you want to read the positive stuff, read the pink entries. Unfortunately that's not the case tonight. Last night was rough. I was so tired and nauseous.

I was able to go to church this morning and help at Coffee Break which was good. If I had stayed home I probably would have had a pity party. I've been tired and a bit nauseous most of the day. After waking up from a nap this afternoon I have just spiraled downhill. My mood has been rotten and negative.

Brian has been so supportive and encouraging as he always is. Right now he is out with a couple friends and I hope he is having a great time. He certainly deserves it after putting up with me tonight.

I'm not sure how to explain my mood. I just feel like my blood could boil. I am so frustrated and so tired of cancer. It has consumed our lives for the last eight months. I was filled with hate tonight. I hate the cancer, I hate chemo, I hate what this does to my family, I hate my stupid colostomy (yes, I did say the "s" word!). I hate that cancer is my life. I hate that the odds are so high against me surviving this. I hate that we may fight this cancer for a year for it to only come back a month later. I hate that cancer may eventually take me from my family.

I put the kids to bed tonight and took a shower where I tried to cry my hate out of me. It helped, a little. But then I saw Ashley standing in the bathroom behind me asking me if I was okay. I hate that she had to see me like that. I hate that I'm probably making many of you cry right now.

So obviously I'm filled with hate and I have to say, I hate that too! I don't know that I've ever used that word so much in my life. It's not even a word we're allowed to say in our house. But rather than sit and wallow in this hatred I decided to swallow my pride and tell all of you. It's been a long time since I've been this down. I know that by tomorrow all of your prayers will have lifted me back up.

I'm sorry to my friends and to my mom that you had to read this on the blog along with the rest of the world. I just don't have it in me to call anyone. Right now I am just going to go take my sleeping pill and go to bed and hopefully sleep peacefully and wake up with a much better attitude.

Thank you for enduring my major grumpies with me!

Monday, October 1, 2007

One More Request

Please also pray to bring Kristi's spirits back up. She's really down tonight. Tired of it all...the physical struggles along with the emotional struggles are taking a toll. She's just so ready for this all to be done. Pray for peace, understanding, and strength.

Monday, October 1, 2007: Another Chemo Day

Well, another chemo day is done. This one has hit Kristi a little harder than the past ones...probably because her counts are low. She's very tired and nauseous. We begin her nightly shots tomorrow night to bring her blood counts back up.

Please pray that Kristi gets a good night's sleep tonight and she starts feeling better tomorrow.

We were wondering if you enjoyed listening to music while reading our blog. I took the jukebox off because it was kind of a pain when we were updating it...but someone asked "what happened to the music?!" So, I added a little poll on the left hand side. Check yes or no if you want us to add it back. :)